✿ Ordinary ✿

I see the dark, I see the bright Both of them are making me blind I can be the dark, I can be the bright See? It's all the choices Sometimes, I want to bring myself out of the fears But it goes nothing It's a fool Drowning myself, out of control And dying Nobody feels whole of my feelings, exactly I don't want them to feel It's a problem, my own problem But it's hard to keep alone, I need them I need them to see, to feel So I don't have to be alone But.. Who cares? I think everybody on this island has their own problems Would they like to hear mine? I want to go far and far away Bringing my fears and let the wind blow it Nothing happens except freedom I want to be hero of myself Spreading the love to myself Filling a rainbow Could it be the new me? I'll be the greatest me.

It's hard to understand Both of want and love You may have someone to fill your day But then you feel you don't belong to them Not you supposed to be with They lie, cheat for a lil more times over and over again More than you can bear How would you stay You're not thinking for the next one Not your willing But, it seems you have to go for the next chapter with a new one It's fine, isn't it?

Pagi begitu baik disambut, cerah dan tak terasa lelah Kau tau? semangat gadis itu kian meletup Sumringah dalam suasana hati nan gundah Raut wajahnya terlihat biasa, biasa menutup keadaan yang ada Kau tau? baginya, kau adalah dewa, dititipkan padanya dalam nestapa Lara tak begitu lantas terasa, renyah hilang begitu saja Sayangnya, kau menerkam, membuat raganya bak tanpa jiwa Lemah lembayung tertatih Membuatnya begitu habis, lirih dan tak lagi berisi Derai perangainya pun kian layu Tak lagi bisa berambisi dengan dirinya Gelak sayup merdu tangisnya kini meluap Mengeluarkan segala amarah dalam sudut pandang yang salah

Kau tau? Seperti biasa, aku menggerutu Membuatnya tampak lesu dengan wajah penuh lekuk Tak sabarku membias melewati batas rasa Aku malu, ia tetap berlaku lembut padaku Kau tau? Seperti biasa, aku enggan berucap kata Menunggunya memulai, bak puteri kerajaan Jauh dasar lembayung kasih, kurasa kian sedih Melihat mata seorang kasih lirih kian perih Kau tau? Aku tak pandai bersolek manja Aku hanya gemar merangkai frasa, itupun tak ada seberapa Aku hanya senang menyukainya, mengagumi perangainya Sayup sumringah tanpa poles pancar gundah  Malang, 25 Mei 2018

Everytime I close my eyes I remember you, thinking about you I don't know what should I do Because I love you Every night I always pray I look at the sky And I just wanna say I wanna meet you everyday Your eyes shinning bright Bring love to my heart Make me right Choose you to be my sweetheart Now I will hope I can really stop What I thinking of But it just make me drop